Battling The Blues - Purging Painful Emotions

As someone who has struggled with depression, sometimes it's hard to tell if you're slipping back into it or if you're just feeling sad for a moment.

For example, a few days ago I was feeling a little unmotivated so I decided to watch one of my favorite channelers on Youtube talk about my star family forecast for the month (starseed shit, more on this sometime soon). She talked about people around me possibly trying to challenge me and triggering me. Keep in mind, I had already been feeling down before I watched this. When the video was over I sat in silence for a few minutes.

I tried to convince myself that watching the video cured everything and that I felt better. But it didn't. Inside I felt that something was wrong. I couldn't feel the tears coming but I knew that's what I really needed. I needed to cry.

So I locked myself in an empty room for a few minutes and let it out. The release I was feeling wasn't from the video. It had nothing to do with the video. It was from a memory that had been triggered when she mentioned people trying to challenge me. I had been so used to people challenging me in the past, even people who were supposed to be my friends, and I was tired of it. It's a common toxic pattern in past relationships of mine.

To finally let this go, I sat down and let myself feel the emotions completely. I let out a sob and was surprised at how good it felt. I wanted to cry more. I wanted to release more. And when I was done, I looked out the window and it was a beautiful bright day outside. I felt amazing. The darkness that had clouded my mind was gone.

From that point on, I pledged to not hold in my emotions. When they come up this way, it's a blessing because they can easily be released. Let that shit go! I'm not a medical expert, nor do I claim to know the difference between sadness and depression. But as someone who has experienced both, I can say that holding on to pain and burying it deep inside helps with neither. The best thing I've learned to do is to take a personal moment alone and let the emotions surface, then cry, sob, yell, make noise, a.k.a. do whatever the hell you have to get rid of them and finish it off with some deep breathing.

Set the intention that you want to transmute this energy, to let it go so that it can be transformed into positivity and clear some space for happiness. Picture your situation differently. Picture yourself smiling and at peace. And on that note, restart your day! No matter what time it is. Time is an illusion after all.